Monday, January 23, 2012

Guilt

Please know that I am writing this to myself. These are thoughts I've had for a while and thought they were worth sharing. I've even put blogging on the back-burner for a while because I feel like it's a struggle for so many women! I didn't want to write another post until I addressed this first.

We all feel that pang of guilt from time to time....

Am I being a good mom? Am I being a good wife? My house should be cleaner... My children should play more... I should be more in shape... 

As women, we often compare ourselves to others - me included! I think that with the popularity and accessibility of Facebook, Pinterest, blogs, etc... we get to peek into each others' lives a bit. I am quite a nosey person, so I LOVE getting to see what other people do! I even find joy in seeing the organization of someone's bathroom cabinets!

We see the glorious tiled bathrooms on Pinterest and long to take a bath in that ginormous tub!

We see the SuperMom who does all sorts of wonderful things with her children and still has time to keep her home immaculate and organized.

We see the woman bragging about all the things her child can do and say and how they are above average according to all standards!

What we don't see are the women who are hurting. The woman whose child isn't sleeping. The woman who has been going back and forth between physical therapy sessions for her child that is developmentally delayed. The woman who feels like she is constantly with her counselor. The woman who burns every meal she cooks. The woman whose husband lost his job. The woman who can't keep a clean house no matter how hard she tries. The woman who is stressed because she doesn't have help at home. The woman whose husband is serving our country across the globe.

I want to put it out on the table that this blog is a place where I write about positive things. You don't see every thing about my life. I NEVER intend to make my life look perfect on the outside by boasting and bragging. We don't spend our days going to the zoo, the beach, and making playdough. Most days are boring days that I don't find worth sharing... We have our own struggles that may make it to blogland one day, but for now we continue to work on them.

I came across a verse the other day and it was so powerful that I need to share with this world that so often compares.

"We do not dare classify or compare ourselves with some who commend themselves. When they measure themselves by themselves and compare themselves with themselves, they are not wise. We, however, will not boast beyond proper limits, but will confine our boasting to the field God has assigned to us..."
2 Corinthians 10:12-13

I write this to encourage you and me. When we read things on the internet, keep in mind that we are seeing a snapshot of someone's life. Nobody's life is perfect - although some are presented that way.

I pray God gives us a feeling of worthiness! You are worthy! God put you in the role as wife, mother, friend, sister, daughter (and if any men read this...you are in the role as husband, father, friend, brother, son) for a reason! To His glory! Amen!

6 comments:

Sandy.Martin said...

Thanks for sharing this today. I totally needed it. Miss you! Hugs!

idnar82 said...

Thanks for writing this. I struggle with this same guilt all the time. I try and remind myself that not everything is as it seems in the lives on online people. Fortunately, I have several amazing friends that bare all with me. I love the transparency. It makes me feel more normal. I love that. :-)

Emily Miller said...

Jill,
If I didn't know better, I would say that you have a radio frequency into my house these last few weeks. I think I complained/vented about the exact same things you just wrote. You are so right about the facebook/Pinterest trap that we women let ourselves fall into, wherever we find ourselves vulnerable. Thank you for the encouragement and for putting it into words!

Alison said...

I definitely feel that way. Sometimes I'm reading people's blogs about all the wonderful things they are doing, then one of my girls comes in, but I just keep reading, then I think, "What am I doing?! Stop reading and go play with your kids!" We don't have to do the most interesting or crafty things with them. As long as we are giving them a good portion of our time each day, we can feel good about being mothers. Easier said than done though. I drive myself insane sometimes.

Ashley said...

Well said! I all too often find myself in this position, and that's why I rarely blog anymore. I feel like I already spend too much time on Facebook and what not, so blogging hasn't been a priority. When I do log on though, I feel depressed that I'm not as "good" as some moms. We must lay down those feelings! Thanks for your honesty! :)

Natalie said...

Great post - thanks for that verse!